I first learned the concept of "a holding pattern" while flying into O'Hare. Due to a lack of runway space, or gates, we'd circle above the airport, waiting for when we'd be taken out of a holding pattern and permitted to land. I have found the term useful to describe my medical situation over the past several months. While I waited to find out the availability and possibility of a promising clinical trial, I made the decision to put my current treatment plan on hold, taking advantage of my remission. With that aspect of my life in a holding pattern, I was able to plunge swiftly and fully ahead with other opportunities and was thrilled and grateful to do so.
But unfortunately, like so often at O'Hare, my plan(e) has been diverted. My most recent scans showed an aggressive return in some new places and some where the cancer has been before.